since the moment i came back after xmas break everything was just really weird and different...
my aunt's phonecall
my mom's suggestion
me taking up nursing
go back to bacolod
continue my studies there
which means kicking my butt out of UP
putting into shit the school year that almost literally burried me alive
cutting whatever knot i made so damn hard with my friends and colleagues
depressed for how many weeks causing my laziness in school
dropped my pe swimming class in order not to anticipate the day that i will drown in no time
lost my interest in doing good in my classes... i mean, what's the point then?
but then... another crap came... shit really happens all the time...
i forgot that i belong to a patriarchal family
my dad rules
and he wants me to stay in UP
and battles out with my aunt's idea since she's my mom's sis anyway and not his
making a plan b
to convince my aunt that i will just continue in UP
and if she really wants to intervene with my education she better just support me in going to med school
if she wants to waste her money on her nephew then she's free to choose in which way to help
but must never clash through my dad's plan
oh daddy,,, ever powerful father...
but my aunt should never be underestimated
her $ offer is precious
a dirty, filthy offer
it will happen once but not twice
so, what will it be?
technically for now, i am not the one who holds my own future
the oscars goes to the elders, those in the authority
that's the problem if you have caused something to your family
that you have to pay a huge sum that even your own will can be put as a bait
that's the problem if you've been a not-so-good child and have been very obedient at the same time
fate plays with you
but hell i care... wherever will i go or wherever will i stop
what matters most is that i will make everyone happy to whatever it is
and stick out again to my plan and find my personal legend...
oh well... enough with this one... just continue...
-peace-
