Two years ago I was fixated in front of the computer typing nonsense of my worries of probably being transferred to another school. Two years later, here I am, doing the exact thing that I probably would have thought to happen to me during those times. I shifted to another course and transferred to another school. I said my goodbyes and my frustrations about that matter and all I want is to let bygones be bygones. It was a long, long time ago (well, two years is very long indeed) and as a dynamic person, I need to face what’s present and what’s ahead which led me to “re-open” and “revamp” this very dusty and very abandoned blog site of mine.
Two years ago (again!), I was fond of writing blogs. It’s sort of my past time. I mean, living in the dormitories could make you do a lot of crazy things out from your school obligations and for me, I chose to spend it blogging. Anything that matters to me or any nonsensical thing at all under the heat of the sun that I think just makes sense to me, I blog about it. But that changed as evidenced by my last post. I just lose the vibe and the kick to make my past times worthwhile. Instead of hanging out with my friend’s laptop, I spend most of my “last moments” with my friends. I only have a couple of months left until I ran out of time and disappear in the school that I loved the most, and in front of the people that I shared that love with.
“Nawalan na ako ng gana” as what we would usually say. I gave up blogging since then. As a writer to even start writing, he needs an inspiration to make his fingers work something he thinks worth writing for. And for me, being pissed all the time that then after I transferred to another school just made me forget that I even have a place in cyberspace wherein I can ventilate my rage or ridicule about the new school and the new people I have to rub butts off with. Later I realized that shit happens all the time and even in the best of times that I just have to swallow it. The dog days are over so I need to accept the present and the in-your-face reality up my sleeves.
And that’s where we are heading right now. For two years now in my new school, I learned to love and accept my new found life. Life is like a Mexican drama anyway, you don’t expect things to turn out the way it should be. There are a lot of twists and turns in the story that you yourself had never expected that those things would happen to you. As I look up myself before and what were I usually think, I always end up laughing to how far cry were the differences of what my life was before—how I think of my future, how I think of myself, and simply, how I think. It’s so weird to realize the fact that I need to retract and be guilty of the things I used to say before that somehow, are opposite of what would I normally say of those things right now. It’s vague, I know but you will guess the picture.
So now you know I am a completely different person to what I was in my last blog post two years ago. You may think then so what? Why am I here again? Why am I sweeping off the dusty templates of this blog site once again? Well, first I am a writer and I love writing. Second, I have this account and this is mine so I should make use of it. Third, I am doing well now as you probably could think which means I am in the mood to do what I would normally do in my past time before. Fourth, I have lots of ideas that are waiting to explode in the blogging world. And fifth, well hell yeah I just miss the fact that I have these encapsulated desires and wits in blogging.
I’m back! And I will start as the header says with a REFORM. I changed and so will be this site. What’s in store? Well, you just have to wait.
